Do Your Fantasies Scare You?
Mine do. My husband’s scare me too.
Last night in bed we were talking before we shut off the light. And He told me He sometimes thinks of me in some large place, say a club, naked, collared and leashed, and being made to service a lot of people there while others all watch, and He holds my leash. Or I’m tied to a sawhorse and people line up to fuck me. I know at least one follower I’m fond of that will be able to say, “been there, done that, and had a great time doing it!” but I am certain that were this to happen to me for real, both Master and I would have serious regrets at best, and some relationship issues at worst.
The thing is, while it’s His fantasy, it turns me on too. A lot. And there are others that really get me wet. The common theme seems to be that it’s public, it involves many others, and it’s pretty humiliating. Probably no point in my going into specifics.
I’m happy that Master always insists that I will never be shared, that He is jealous and possessive and wants me for His own. It’s a relief, let me tell you. And yet, the back of my brain still fantasizes about those naughty, terrible things I want to do or have done to me and am terrified if they ever came to be. I feel like a coward who isn’t ready to experience life to the fullest, to do whatever my dreams push me toward.
Do you have fantasies you want, but are scared to do and are hoping never happen?